That Banned Tiananmen Square Video

I was only 9 years old when the Tiananmen Square incident happened in China. Of course, I was too young to understand much about it, and we were always taught one side of the events that occurred that day.

Over the years, I have heard lots of things about it and also about the oppression of the Chinese people by their government. We in the West are told all kinds of negative things about China and other nations that are not part of the western belt of countries.

It's hard to really know what's true when the perception is greatly twisted to favour the western interpretation of China as a country and the Chinese people.

I have seen the videos of what happened in Tiananmen Square; that is, the videos released by the mainstream media in the west, along with the flood of stories of what happened from a western perspective. Though, I always wanted to hear the other side of the story from the Chinese perspective, but, it's not something Chinese people would openly discuss; why?

Surely they want to get the facts straight by sharing what they saw/know and understand from an inside perspective right? Well according to the west they are oppressed and don't dare speak out against it.

Yet, in my experience, that's not really true, as Chinese people over the past 2 decades have not been oppressed, and they are consciously aware of that incident but don't slate their government over it.

What if I told you that I came across a video in 2003; I actually hate the person who sent it to me as it gave me nightmares for several weeks and I wish I had never seen it, to be honest.

I am talking about a video that was banned by almost every western nation and, as such, it was deliberately never shown on any of the mainstream western media channels; for good reason, obviously.

Ask yourselves why you only see selected angles of what happened at Tiananmen Square, and also why nobody in the west ever saw how it even started despite there already being political unrest before the incident happened.

That horrible video, I don't even want to talk about really, and it's not what you would think as told from a western perspective.

What I saw was a young female student at Tiananmen Square. She broke away from the crowd of gathered students and headed towards one of the gates. There was a guard stationed there who had raised his weapon halfway as she approached; he must have known how unstable those students were as he did not raise the weapon all the way to her as I thought all soldiers were supposed to; he was likely just being cautious to try and avoid any triggers of violence.

She stopped not too far away from him and kneeled down, he had his gun pointed at her this time as she was already close enough to be a threat. Initially, I was not sure what she was doing, maybe she was surrendering I thought, as it's hard to know without all the information about what was happening there.

What she did next was so awful that I struggled to comprehend what was happening at that time without knowing more about WHY!!!!

She poured some type of liquid on herself and then set herself on fire. What's so terrible about it, is that she never screamed as she burned herself to death, not even once. The look on that guard's face, he would have been traumatised for life after seeing that, he really did not know what to do; and to be honest, I highly doubt anybody would have given that situation and what had just happened.

After that things escalated as the crowd of gathered students literally went crazy; several of them ran towards the gates and that guard and others opened fire; that's what they were trained to do anyway. But, how those students behaved was completely abnormal, and I at that time had no way of understanding how somebody could behave in that way.

It was not until a decade later that I learned about the CIA experiments of mind control on Chinese-American students; they had dosed them with LSD and other mind-altering substances as they subjected them to various psychological experiments.

Once those students had been primed they returned to China without ever really knowing what had even happened to them. There was a Chinese teacher who knew they were primed, and she then rallied them up and eventually triggered them to rally against a cause related to the Chinese government.

I have no idea if that cause was initially genuine or not, but those students were weaponised through the CIA experiments and ready to be triggered when they reached Tiananmen Square.

Initially, I was not prepared to accept that anybody would do this to people, but, then I understood about the balance of power in the world and the emergence of China who were rapidly becoming a strong and powerful force in the world at that time with technology; so much so that they surpassed the west, even adapting and improving western technologies to work for them.

Eventually, I was able to wrap my head around it, and the mind control experiments would of course provide me with the information I needed to understand how a person could burn themselves alive without ever screaming; it makes perfect sense if you really think about it. She was likely laced with LSD and was completely out of her head at that time, there is no other explanation as to why something like that even could have happened.

The Chinese government know they did wrong at Tiananmen Square, they had tried to make amends over the years that followed, and most of the Chinese people already know and understand the real truth about what had happened; they know what started that whole incident and how soldiers overreacted in the worst way possible.

I am an objective thinker, therefore, I have to look at what was going through the minds of those soldiers as well. They are still people, and they witnessed something that was completely abnormal outside of what they were trained for; a strong lesson for the Chinese government to learn from with all future training of their soldiers. I could never imagine how any normal person would have reacted in that situation; it all escalated rapidly, and extreme violence was used to resolve the problem.

That video is somewhere around online, wherever it is, I really hope you don't watch it, even if you are curious. It's less of an impact to me now, but it still makes me feel sad and sick thinking about it. Fuck you to the person who sent me it.